I've been invited by a bunch of kids to speak at some sort of university-student leadership conference. And while I'm honored, the irony of the situation does not escape me: how do you expect someone so-very-lost to guide others?
I attended a leadership conference in NY where the speaker advocated that you 'fake-it-till-you-make-it'. She showed us a little rubber-ducky and told us to look at ducks when they float in the water. They glide around serenely making barely a ripple in the water, but all the while under the surface their little feet are paddling like mad in order to keep them afloat. If you looked at them from down below, all you'd see is chaotic movement. From up top, you see effortless grace. The idea is, that like the duck you glide on the surface even though you may be feeling like a complete and utter mess on the inside. I think NY-speaker-lady would be proud of how much I've assimilated to a duck aaj kal, but I'm afraid there is nothing effortless about this grace, and my biggest fear is there there may never be.