Instead I'm playing hermit. And what worries me is that I like it. That all I want to do right now is wash all the gop off my face, take off my lenses and just go to sleep. And then I want to do the same thing again tomorrow night, and Sunday also maybe. I don't want to go meet a bunch of random strangers and talk a lot about inconsequential things. I don't want to go for the get-together in Bani Gala, or the Soccer Finals bash at a random persons house. I don't want to go to sleazy parties (truth-be-told, I'm all sleazed out). I don't want sheesha (don't want cancer either), and I don't particularly want coffee (or any other assorted caffeine substitute).
I just want to be alone for a while. Alone to think without having to talk. Without having to smile (when I don't want to), laugh (a little too loudly) or entertain (demanding) company. I'm exhausted with social drama, and for this weekend, if the world outside will let me, I just want to 'be'.