I know you've heard this a million times from nearly every girl who's gone on to play ring-a-ring-roses with your heart. And I'm sorry for you, but the truth is, I get sick of playing even before the first set of cards are laid out on the table.
Maybe I'm too old (if you ask me, I think I was born too old) but I find the excitement of the emotional mind-fuck supremely tedious. I get tired of second-guessing, and tearing out he-loves-me-he-loves-me-not petals of flowers-who-don't-deserve-to-be-decapitated.
If I turn you down today, it'd be for a simple reason: I don't think you want me enough. Some time ago I decided I would never fight for affection. You are no exception to that rule. It may not make sense to you (but it will someday) but I've reached the point where I'd like a relationship to give me a safe place to run around and be me in. I am not going to pretend I'm someone else, simply to hold on to someone I should never have hooked up with to begin with.
My advice to you is to go knock at another door. I'm sure you'll find many women who'll be willing to entertain your indecision.I'm not one of them. If you want me, you know where to find me. You know what to say to me. And you know you're going to get a straight answer, and right now (this minute) the answer is no.
So run away elsewhere darling. This playground is strictly for adults only. Have a good day.