May 23, 2010

Have you ever held hands with a dead person? Have you ever touched cheeks stony, cold and almost wax-life? Have you ever stroked an unyielding face desperately hoping that the warmth from your fingers would pass through? Have you ever run your hands down closed eyelids hoping they would suddenly open and - even if had to be for the very last time - see you once again? Have you ever put your head down on a chest and lay there searching for a heartbeat almost as if your existence depended upon your finding it?

Have you ever held hands with a dead person?

I have.

16 comments:

Anonymous said...

i miss my abba too

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry for your loss Xeb. I remember the day i heard about it and i thought the ground beneath my feet had left me. I couldn't look at H for the longest time, not knowing what to say to console him. I hope wherever your dad is, he is at peace :)

Lonely Perverted Soul said...

I wont be able to go through wat u have... I hope u find peace of mind...

Nida said...

Hugs babe.. Loads of them. my mom lost her Father and two brothers in consecutive years. fate is harsh sometimes...all we can do is hold on.

mehreenkasana said...

I have.

Deepak Iyer said...

I wonder how other readers understood that you were referring to your father.

Xeb said...

D: I assume its the same way you knew I was referring to my father. Or did you not do the math?

Deepak Iyer said...

I meant .. I didn't get it until I read the comments.

*cough* Or did you not do the math? *cough*

kay-tee said...

D for Dumb, D for Deepak!

Xeb said...

D: It's all good. We can't all be as perceptive as everyone else.

k-t: Not that I necessarily disagree with you, but there's no need to be rude! :P

uglyduckling91 said...

Nope. :[ They didn't let me.

Deepak Iyer said...

@kay-tee : I would get back at you, if I were in third grade [:P]

Xeb said...

ud: I'm sorry. The memory of holding his hand, of just holding on to him,for what seems like an eternity - or a few seconds (depending on what side of the equation I'm on) is whats keeps me going...

Khizzy said...

GOD. Xeb, every time you write about your loss, you make it everyone's loss.

My heart literally stops, and I feel like I'm there... feeling that loss with you.

sometimes life just doesn't play fair.

uglyduckling91 said...

I was too young and didn't know what was going on. Probably that's why nobody let me.

How do we know said...

i have.. but it wasnt my father.. and i was happy for her that she was gone..