June 13, 2009

I hate being peripheral. Which does not mean I like being in the center-of-attention all the time (although it be nice some of the time), but I need to be 'integral' in order to enjoy myself. I detest the feeling of being on the fringes (even though they may not be uncomfortable fringes). I dislike (very much) the nebulously toungue-tied formality that is the inevitable result of coming face to face with large groups of people one does not know very well. Which is why even though I make friends easily I choose not to 'hang' with them until I attain a level of comfort that allows me to be, well, 'me'. Today's wedding function was an exercise in the fringes. It's inevitable, I suppose. But it's not my thing. Not-a-tall.